Kris’s sword has colors almost identical to Susie’s hair and Ralsei’s horns. This is a subtle hint to the fact that Kris sees them as nothing but weapons, mere tools they can use against their enemies.
At some point, and for some of us it will be very soon while for others of us it will be a long time from now, you will start to feel like you want to listen to One Direction, or to Liam’s music, and simply enjoy it. You’ll watch This is Us or San Siro and you won’t be in mourning, you’ll be enjoying yourself. You will look at Liam and think only happy thoughts, and you will know that he is gone but in that moment it won’t hurt the same.
And you may, in that moment, feel supremely guilty about it.
I need you, when it happens, to take those feelings of guilt and let them go.
Liam, I am so certain of this, would not want you to feel guilty for not feeling sad. Liam, with his big heart and his joy and his happiness, would want you to take delight in what he made for you. I know and believe this with everything in me.
We have all suffered a deep loss that will change everything, it will change how we view our fandom time forever, to varying degrees. But someday, your heart will say, I want to let life in. And you should let it, when that happens.
Grief is a fickle thing, but some of us will approach a moment when we are tempted to take joy in Liam’s life, joy in what he has given us. Let yourself feel that joy, when it happens. Let Liam’s memory be a happy one when you can.
